recovering
I try so hard to sleep at night and I'm tired enough but the steroids won't let me rest.
I watch boring television or try to read. No wine for me.
The past couple of nights I've had nightmares when I sleep.
I tried soft scents to lull me, I tried focusing on the breath (which is just ridiculous when one has a respiratory infection) and backwards counting.
Three nights ago my phone woke me, buzzing about something on Facebook which I don't even post on.
The medicine makes everything taste funny. Fruit, tea, water - water is the strangest. It tastes very sweet and I'm not a sweets person.
I'm going to work tomorrow and then I'm off until Monday.
I went to the store today. One store. It was exhausting.
My fingers hurt. I complain a lot.
It isn't too hot out, though, so that's nice.
I watch boring television or try to read. No wine for me.
The past couple of nights I've had nightmares when I sleep.
I tried soft scents to lull me, I tried focusing on the breath (which is just ridiculous when one has a respiratory infection) and backwards counting.
Three nights ago my phone woke me, buzzing about something on Facebook which I don't even post on.
The medicine makes everything taste funny. Fruit, tea, water - water is the strangest. It tastes very sweet and I'm not a sweets person.
I'm going to work tomorrow and then I'm off until Monday.
I went to the store today. One store. It was exhausting.
My fingers hurt. I complain a lot.

It isn't too hot out, though, so that's nice.
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Then he told me I COULD have surgery to open my middle ear to see IF they can do anything, but it would be quite a risky operation to have wihtout any assurance anything COULD be done.
He concluded telling me I had a very bad luck and my hearing will only get worse.
I am officially deaf and can apply for papers to get a government assistance (like 90 years old people do ...)
I am OFFICIALLY dead.
You're not alone. Hang in there!
I am suffering a summer cold so I know exactly what you mean about the discontent that comes with feeling like crap.