autopilot

Scheduled posting is a wonderful thing - all these posts delivering themselves while I traipse in and out of town meeting people, discussing my future, agonizing.
I haven't "live written" anything in over a week which is lucky for all of you as I feel like I'm barely coherent and good for me as it has given me a chance to think. Because I need to think MORE.

I have now met with four people from my previous life as a working woman. Some of the meetings involved drinking and, at yesterday's meeting at 10 am, when M asked me if I'd like anything to drink I WAS tempted to ask for gin, some of the meetings were in office settings (yesterday at 10, so no gin).

I sort of dragged myself to the first meeting. I was feeling pessimistic and wasn't sure what I wanted which isn't really the way to go into these kinds of things. Better to have a clear picture of where one wants to be, who one might to work with/for and where.
But yesterday's meeting was different. I met with a man I worked with a long time ago and had not seen in many years. We seemed to fall into step in our conversation and though I have very little experience selling myself, talking about salary, and negotiating, I felt comfortable talking to him.
I don't mean to be cryptic. I would, pretty much, jump at the chance to work for him. I wasn't sure that our past working relationship would amount to anything...but it might.
I would be an asset to him and he would be, I think, a pleasure to work for.
I'm not kidding myself, there will be a steep learning curve, but, if he'd have me, I'm ready to say I'd go.